long lasting love?

I just don't know if you will agree or disagree with me. If it is effective to have a long love engagement to somebody? May be my own experience is not the same as yours. Flirting to early, to soon for only three weeks or being engaged for three weeks. I think not, but the only thing in my mind is to have a baby at that time. So, the baby came after nine months of being with my husband. After giving birth to my first child is not yet a guarantee that I will be with my husband for a long time since marriage is not a part of our conversation all the time. But I've been so patient for a very long time and thank GOD, I got married when my first child reach the age of five months. Taking a lot of understanding that I was to ahead to give myself to my husband without marriage. But I have no regrets at all; I am still with the father of my children. A lot of bad and good things happened but I STAY.., I stay in spite of all unpredictable circumstances and people around us. I admit that my husband was the weakest part of our relationship but thank GOD I always stand still to what ever happened. Sometimes people used to call us “Martyrs" because we cling on, not thinking the dignity of my being human. So I just want to beg your understanding that most of the time my children are always the consideration why I stayed. Secondly, I'm afraid to gamble another feeling to someone whom I don't know yet at least if I stay, I know well to play my cards in the manner of my husband. But don't think too much that I'm kind of a martyr and before you judge my husband, he hurt me so much emotionally. He remits his salary to me the time, that he was working. Lastly don't get me wrong if I keep trying to survive my marriage... it's my choice, don't get me wrong if I keep surviving my marriage...... may be I was very sure of myself that I was emotionally ready when I fall in love even at a very short time.